Disabilities

Sometimes this road I'm on gets really  tiresome. I'm fine one minute and then I'm ready to throw the towel in...Its really hard day after day  knowing  that this can get much worse.  I find that I admire people with disabilities so much more then I ever have.I knew it was tough but the emotional part of it is just as hard as the physical. There is so much I want to do and can't. Gary's aunt Scherrie has been doing this for over 30yrs......she is my greatest hero next to Jesus. This woman has had to endure the toughest of times and in my book she is much greater then superman or a basketball star or a football hero.  HELLO.......the heros are the ones that go through life and deal with the difficulties of not being able to  do the things we take for granted . For instance like just taking a shower, or trying to go to the bathroom in a public place, I can go on an on.  I guess it took me  to get sick before I realized the hardships these wonderful people go through.  I know there are alot of great achievers, but make no mistake these are the ones that deserve  the applause.I'm not saying for me either, I've only had to do this for a year and I'm a cry baby. I think that Wheaties should be the breakfast of champions as the  ones that really are..The kids with muscular dystrophy an down syndrome kids...adults that have  had  disabilities battles all their life...You know I might just write a letter to Wheaties.

My Faith

Thinking about how you come about faith....

When I first had an understanding about God, I was about 5 yrs old, my mom was taking us to church.I remember the old hymnals we used to sing,when our voices were all you could hear.No music ,just piano and the sound of people singing to the Lord. They were sad as I remember and on several occasions I would look up at my mom and she would be crying. I never really understood why she was crying but she would look at me and smile. I'm sure I asked her why she was crying and she would say,I love Jesus so much. I thought who is this Jesus that makes my mom cry.I'm sure I had other ideas in my head but I will never forget and that was my first understanding of God.

Later on  my life would take alot of terrible turns,as a young person I seemed to take all the wrong paths.

Later in my 20's I finally met Jesus for the second time,but this time it was so different. He became so alive in my life like never before.I was ashamed of all I had done before Him and somehow He was saying all is forgiven..let it go. That was hard for me to do,cause I felt like there was so much I had done wrong.He just kept telling me you are forgiven.I knew in my heart that God is real and Jesus did die on the cross for me.All it took was a simple act of faith.I believe, though I cannot see Him I know He is real.

My life changed so much,I never wanted anything more in my life then Him. I hungered for His word everyday.I  had alot of difficulties that just didn't go away at that moment, but I knew He was going to help me through everything.I knew all was going to be well.

Its been over 20 yrs ago that I gave my life to Jesus and I promise you it has never been a dull moment.Much good and much bad has happened, but my faith is in tact,even though it has been shaken many times. Today I go through the most difficult thing I have ever faced.The battle for my life.I guess from the moment you are born the enemy is out there to kill you. He hates so much of anything of Gods creation.John 10:10  says The enemy comes to kill,steal,and destroy. But I have come to give life and give it with abundance. You are Jesus, a God of abundance,of love,joy,peace,kindness,mercy and You are my God.There is no other god.My favorite verse in the bible is..John 14:6 Jesus is the way,the truth,and the life, no man comes to the Father except through Jesus. Because He took it all on the cross for all of us,even those who hate Him.He loves So I stand today with greater faith then I started out with. In this past 11 months my faith has grown beyond what I ever thought it would.I don't like this thing that has happened, but I like what it has done to me.It has changed me and my faith in God is ever stronger.I will have bad days ,but I know He will be with me and He will help me through it all.I pray my love will grow for Him more an more an my love for people will grow deeper as well.For He loves so I love...Thank you father for what the devil intended for evil will turn out for good..no matter what.