Tell me what you think

Hello to eveyone that are reading my blogs. I hope you are enjoying them. Its hard to tell cause I don't get any feed back...So do me a favor...just tell me what you are thinking.
You don't have to say good story or anything like that...just tell me where you are in your walk with the Lord...and if you aren't thats okay too. Tell me if you have any prayer requests...just let me know what I can do to help you...okay? ok   love ya all Jennifer

Christmas

Merry Christmas everyone!  Wow its another Christmas, it seems like it gets more important to me every year. I think its because we are closer then ever  to seeing Jesus appear. Some don't believe He is coming back...but He said in His word that there would be scoffers. People don't believe since the beginning of time that He isn't coming. They say when is He , we still go on doing what we want, He is not coming. But He is...they will be drinking and making merry and then as a thief in the night, He will come. Luke 17:20-37
    Are you ready?  Because thats the way it will be,some will be getting married,some will be working,some will be in school and then suddenly............Jesus will appear!
    Be ready it can happen in the blink of an eye!! 2Thessalonians 2:1-17
 Have you noticed how people are these days, they are rushed, they are angry, they have no consideration for others. Fighting in their families,angry at someone for  something silly. It talks of these things in the word. Sad as it is, God will send strong delusion on the world. If you are not born again and strong in the word of God, then you could be part of this delusion. You must know the word  to be prepared for what is coming. Have you seen on rear view mirrors, things are closer then they appear? So you look and you see this car right on your bumper and yes he is closer then that. Thats how it is, Jesus is closer then you know...He is at the very door.....He is waiting on the Father to say, Son go get your children. He is ready, are you?  Don't wait another minute, if  you are not sure that you have a relationship with Jesus,then now is the time. Today is day of salvation! You don't no if you will have another minute to live.You think you do,but this could be the day your soul will be required of you.
  Now I will lead you in a simple prayer:
       Dear Father, I'am a sinner and I need your forgiveness, please forgive me from all that I have ever done. Cleanse me and make me whole, I want you to come into my life and live within me. Thank you for your love.amen
   Thats it,  you just need to ask Him and He will live with in you.It doesn't stop there though,you must read His word and He will guide you with everything.Pray to Him everyday about all your decisions, ask Him for help with everything.Nothing is to small or to big for Jesus.  He loves you and the angels will rejoice when you pray.
   One more thing,find a good church and they will help..no they aren't perfect either,they are people just like me and you,they will make mistakes,but always forgive.
  Please let me know if you  pray this prayer, I would like to pray for you or help in any way I can.
                God bless you as you go on this wonderful journey.  May He bless you in every way. This is my gift to you this year...Merry Christmas and God be with you.Jennifer

                                        

  

The home

My sis, What can I say about how wonderful she is? She has a heart of gold.She reminds me of her daddy, always wanting to help out where ever she is needed. Looking  as beautiful as her mommy. We had a wonderful time at her home yesterday and she fixed so many wonderful things to eat. We  got reaquainted with old friends and the house was decorated with beautiful things. It ws like stepping back in time.  We all used to live there at one time and the love everyone poured out on me when Gary and I first were married was so wonderful. I think I had my best Christmas  there at that house. The year I was pregnant with Chenoa, grandpa  Ivan came over that christmas morning excited. Wanted to see all of us.  The memories I have at that house just flooded me . We sure did have some great times there. The Tope family has always made me feel like I   belonged to all of them. The warmth and love from both sides of the family(Kerns an Topes)  I never new how loved you could feel from all. It hasn't always been easy for them either, but they continue to love anyone that comes through their door.   We all miss dad so much and wish he were here, but  he gets to spend Christmas with Jesus .How great is that!

     I just want to take a moment to thank everyone in the family for their love and support.Its been 31 years  in this family and its been wonderful to be with all of you.  I pray we will continue on having  wonderful times together and on into heaven. Julie, thank you so much for your love. 

wonders

Just sitting here  looking out the window.Caught this cute little bird on the post.He was waiting his turn to eat. This is life, waiting for your next meal,waiting for next job,waiting to have a baby, waiting to live,waiting to die. Once I thought to myself,is this all there is to life...you are born, you live, you die? Is there anyting to this? Thats when I started searching to know if there is a God, a heaven,a hell? Once I started to seek Him, He then began revealing Him self to me.I searched Him out with a heart that was open to the truth of God.He found me,He saved me, the reality of that time was long ago.I know now that He is  real and He deserves all my praise.

I have been talking to some people on facebook about God. Most of them are atheists,and they have nothing nice to say about God.In fact they are down right nasty about God. I understand that they were where I was and not knowing if there really was a God, but I never can understand the nasty way they talk.Well I should the bible states that the whole world is under the lie of the devil. 2Corinthians4:3-4

They can't understand the things of God, nor can they spiritually discern it.  

1Corinthians 2:14

Its easy then  to see that they have a hard time. There are some though that are not mean spirited. Those are the ones I don't mind chatting with. I think that they are really searching, so they shouldn't call their self an atheist.  My prayer is they find God and know how wonderful He is. Its a dark world without God in it. I can't imagine going through this without Him. He is there for me every step of the way.Even when it feels like  I'm alone, I know He is ever present. Why? Because He said He would be and I believe Him. He loves me with love like no other.When I feel bad, He is there to help me through it.Thank You Father, for loving me, for saving me,for caring about me. Thank you for finding me when I was lost in a world of darkness.How wonderful will it be to live and worship you forever. The great IAM!  I love you Jennifer

Streams in the Desert by L.B. Cowman

There is an old story of an elderly man , who always carried a little can of oil with him everywhere he went, and when he would go through a door that squeaked, he would squirt a little oil on the hinges. If he encountered a gate that was hard to open, he would oil the latch.And so he went through life, lubricating all the difficult places, making it easier for those who came after him. People called the man eccentric,strange, and crazy, but he went steadily on, often refilling his can of oil when it was nearly empty, and oiling all the difficult places he found.
 In this world,there are many lives that creak and grate as they go about their daily work. Often it seems nothing goes right with them and that they need lubricating with "the oil of joy"(psalm 45:7), gentleness, or  thoughtfulness.
Do you carry your own can of oil with you?Are you ready with your oil of helpfulness each morning? If you offer your oil to the person nearest  you, it just might lubricate the entire day for him. Your oil of cheerfulness  will mean more then you know to someone that is downhearted. Or the oil may be a word of encouragement to a person that is full of despair. Never  fail to speak it, for our lives may touch others on the road of life, and then our paths may diverge, never to meet again.  The oil of kindness has worn the sharp, hard edges off many a sin-hardened  life and left it soft and pliable, ready to receive the  redeeming grace of our Savior. A pleasant word is a bright ray of sunshine to a saddened heart. Therefore give others the sunshine and tell Jesus the rest.  

short one

Well this will be short.Had a wonderful thanksgiving and enjoyed all the company.I have people coming in bringing me good food.Their kindness is immeasurable.I have been blessed and feel like I'am getting Jesus exstension of His hands through these good people. I can't say enough of how much Gary and I both have been blessed. Thanks to all who have been coming in and thanks for the prayers.I know it is what gets me through. I met a young man at OSU clinic a month ago and I had written him.His name is Blake Haxton and he was a Upper Arlington student getting ready to graduate.He contracted a deadly flesh eating disease and almost lost his life.His legs had to be amputated.When I met him I introduced my self  him and told him I was praying for him.His response  was that is what keeps me going.What an inspiration under such sudden circumstances.Just like mine,but he chose not to be bitter but better.Praising God for his life.Know of a wonderful young man at my church who is another inspiration.He helps me to see past the things that get me down. I'm so blessed by Steven and he helps me when I see him at church.He takes each day and embraces it with Gods grace.I know that because he shines like the love of Christ. I'm greatful  know  him.I was blessed today by 2 more wonderful people today, Brenda and Billy, came and cleaned my house and she rubbed my feet.I have hard me excepting all the help, but without it ,I would have a hard time.So I'm so greatful to all. I hope to be able to give back someday.......

being Thankful

Be still and know that I'am God.Psalm46:10

That  was my verse this morning. I wanted to update on how I'am doing. I just got my new cadillac wheelchair and it has been such a blessing.I put in for it just a few weeks ago an got it already.Just in the nick of time.My legs are very wobbley now and I can only stand for a few minutes(short), my speech is sometimes audible but it is really bad. I have to eat soft food now and I did eat a hambuger from wendys an it was good.It took me a while to eat it. I have had some wonderful people come over to help and I'm so greatful. It is hard to ask people to do things for you.When they come I'am greatful for their kindness.I sit here everyday an my computer is my only outlet to the world and I hope that my blogs aren't too depressing.I do have days where  it isn't the best day,but one day at a time is what a wonderful young man told me.He is in a wheelchair too. What an inspiration he is. Today I feel very encouraged by the Word, the Lord is the God that heals and I choose o believe He will.  Just a momentreflecion on all that Im thankful for.Tomorow being turkey day.Its true yu have to look at what you have and not what your circumstances are. God has blessed us with a beautiful,warm home that overlooks the river.I couldn't ask for a better place.Gary keeps working and we are able to pay our bills. I would like my health to be better, but for now everything is good.My granchildren are fine and my kids are  fine,maybe a little stressed.Life is good,because God is in our lives. We don't have anything more we would need.  My heart rejoices in my God who provides  all we need. If I died today,I could say I have had a blessed life.

Father,   Thank you for all  you have done for me.You have given me a wonderful life and beautiful children and now granchildren.Wonder husband that is faithful to me, full of love for me. A family loves me and for that alone I'm more then greatful.You have blessed me all my life and I thank you. My God I give  my self to you

All My love  to you   Jennifer

God's creatures

Seen this deer outback in the water ...Gary captured this picture of this beautiful animal.I think he has chosen to live here it was the third time this week we have seen him.  Hope to see him again..there are eagles that have flown by as well.I hope to get a pic of one of them.
The neatest thing happened this morning after coming home from church, Gary was talking about how it pleased God to  bruise Jesus an just at that moment a white dove flew down in front of us and flew up again.I was astounded, I have never seen a dove in the wild before.It was by itself......It reminded me of how the dove descended on Jesus after He was baptised by John the baptist. I was greatly encouraged and felt like God was saying this is peace an hope I bring you.I have been asking for Him to give me something in scripture or something I can hold onto.  I'm always amazed of how God bends down to kiss an love His kids.He is a wonderful God and I will always praise Him for who He is.He saved me an that is enough for me.I want to be healed but if not I will still stand for Him.He deserves all my praise...nothing less.....

Hear my prayer O Lord, Give ear to my supplications! In your faithfulness answer me, and in your righteousness. 
Do not enter into judgement with your servant,For in your sight no one is righteous.
For the enemy has persecuted my soul; He has crushed my life to the ground;  he has made me dwell in darkness, like those who have  long been dead. Therefore my spirit is overwhelmed in me; My heart within me is distressed.
I remember the days of old;I meditate on all your works; I muse on the works of your hands.
I spread out my hands to you; My soul longs for you in a dry thirsty land. Selah
Answer me speedily , O Lord;
  My spirit fails!
Do not hide your face from me; lest I be like those who go down into the pit.
Caus me to hear yor lovingkindness in the morning,for in you I do trust,Cause me to know the way in which I should walk,For I lift up my soul to you. Deliver me, O Lord, from my enemies;In you I take shelter. Teach me to do your will,For you are my God;
Your Spirit is good.
Lead me in the land of uprightness.
Revive me,O Lord,for your names sake! For yr righteousness sake bring my soul out of trouble. In your mercy cut off my enemies, and destroy all those who afflict my soul;
For Iam your servant. Psalm 143:1-12
      This is my prayer to you O lord, hear me and please answer your child, Iam waiting for you, I need yor healing power on my body.I know you can do all things and in you only do I trust. You are God and there is NO other!
I praise you for who you are,I love you because you are my lover of my soul. I lift my life to you and no matter what I will be with you forever...Thank you Jesus  amen amen so be it  your child Jennifer

oceans

Oceans  of oceans...thinking about how God created the waters.In the beginning He said He was hovering over the waters before  anything was created.  I feel that my tears have made the oceans.Along with many others, their tears have filled the oceans over an over again. Since the beginning of time,how many tears have been shed for the great losses, that have happened. 

Tears  fall from your eyes and slowly fall down to the sea,

waiting and wondering the sea animals  wonder about such things.What is this shedding from your eyes and with great sorrow cries? Why do they weep so,  how can they be comforted, what will they do with all the tears shed?...they will fill the oceans full with the wet salty tears. Then one day they will be comforted and the weeping will stop.For God says He holds their tears in a bottle...a bottle that is as big as the ocean.....One day though soon ,He will wipe every tear away forever.There will be no need of tears ,because the joy  that will fill their heart will be the ilumination of Jesus the King!  He will brighten the heavens with His light that there will be no need of a sun or a moon.  Every  eye will see Him and those that loved Him will be with Him forever. The bottle of tears will be poured out and it will become joy, everlasting joy,love,and peace! So be it! Come Lord Jesus come!

Do you know Him? Do you love Him? He is coming very soon,I will be with Him,I would like for you to know Him.I want you to share in the joy that will be ours someday. He loves you and is waiting for you to open your life up to Him.He wants to show you how much He loves you. ... He is waiting for you now. Don't wait too long,because the door might not always be open for you.Today is the day to invite Him into your heart.If you don't know how...ask me..I will help you...Lots of blessings for you

road trip Virginia

Just a quick word about Virginia rest areas.....They are wonderful for handicap and they are clean.The roads are worse then Ohio's but it has been nice traveling back.Sunny, warm,wonderful trip home.Many thanks to Tammy an Victor for helping in an out of the car countless times. Gary has to so he don't count....just kidding. The wedding was wonderful and we are so happy that Heidi has a husband that truely loves her.  Jeff is a real tender heart, he got emotional during the wedding.To me thats a great sign of strength in a man.Listen up guys... crying is God given and it shows you are a real man. It was alot of fun  being with all the family .Seeing Tommy, Reggie and the boys was great.Tommy is a Pa. nutt...no he is a knitting lion.Man is Virginia full of alot of buckeye fans. The resturant people kept yelling OH..IO!   Sorry to all the Iowa fans...they didn't care for the hawkeyes. I heard they really gave us a run though. The scenery is so pretty driving, the leaves are still turning here. Well be home soon and back to our sweet Winnie.

Alice

A good friend of mine passed away yesterday and I will miss her dearly. Sometimes it seems that the rain just continues to fall in your life.I guess its the times we are in.
Alice was a friend of my dads and she was a great friend to him and me.She was always there for him. When he went to the nursing home,she was always with me and would take him out and enjoy the day together.If it wasn't for her,he could have died.
She was always checking in on him and I'm so greatful for her.After dad died we went to breakfast at Bob's just like we did when dad was alive.It became more distant because of life getting busy,but we always stayed in touch. My heart is grieving for her, but I know she is enjoying life with Jesus and dad.I know she loved the Lord,she always liked talking about Him. She was one of the last, tough women I ever new.She was a fighter to the end.God bless you Alice for all you have done and now you get your rewards. I will miss you........

Soldiers

Today is a day they say to honor veterans and soldiers. Today and everyday is a day to honor them for making this country free.This country was made great because of the God fearing men and women that started this country. The  soldiers  have come along way in fighting and defending other countries.  This country has always ran to defend those who can't defend themselves. I salute the soldiers of past,present,and future. I hope you know how important you are to all of us.  Freedom rings loud because of your sacrifice and you deserve honor everyday. May the one and only God of the universe bless you  and keep you safe.

  My father and uncles faught in world warII and I'm so proud of them. I'am here today because God blessed America with good soldiers and a great country of people that believed in God.Thats why we are the greatest nation on earth next to Israel. The far of God is the beginning of wisdom. Lets not forget ever the sacrifice  many have  done.Lets keep our great nation God fearing and not allow some president to say we are not a christian nation.I can't believe the people that would even allow that......

God Bless America its our home sweet home..not the government....its we the people. WE THE PEOPLE>>>>stand for this great country...don't let her fall prey to the liberals that want to take your freedoms.  They are blind to truth...Take your stand.

Strength & Hope By George Matheson

By George Matheson----
There are times when  everything looks very dark to me-------so dark that I have to wait before I have hope.Waiting with hope  is very difficult,but true patience is expressed when we must even wait for hope. When we see no hint of success but refuse to , when we see nothing but the darkness  of night  through  our window  yet keep the shutters open  because stars may appear in the sky, and when we hav an empty place in our heart yet will not allow it to be filled with anything less then God's best---- that is the greatest  kind of patience in the universe. It is the story of Job in the midst of the storm,Abraham on the road to Moriah, Moses in the desert of Midian, and the Son of Man in the garden of Gethsemane. There is no patience as strong as that which endures because we see " him who is invisible"(Hebrews 11:27) It is the kind of patience that waits for hope.
  Dear Lord, You have made waiting beautiful and patience divine.You have taught us that  Your will should be accepted, simply because it is Your will. You have  revealed to us that a person may see nothing but sorrow in his cup yet  still be willing to drink it because of  a conviction that  Your eyes see further then his own.
Father, give me Your divine power---- the power of Gethsemane. Give me the strength to wait for hope---to look through the window when there are no stars. Even when my joy is gone, give me strength to stand victoriously in the darkest night and say, "To  my Heavenly Father, the sun still shines".    I will  have reached the  point of greatest  strength once I have learned to wait for hope.  Strive to be one of the few who walk this earth with the ever present  realization--
every morning , noon, an night that the unknown that people call heaven is directly behind  those things  that are visible.   (Galatians 5:5 )   By faith we eagerly await through the Spirit the righteousness for which we hope.

Its about Jesus

For you are my lamp,O Lord;The Lord shall enlighten my darkness.For by you I can run against a troop;By my God I ca n leap over a wall. As for God ,His way is perfect;
The Word of the Lord is proven;
He is a shield to all who trust Him.For who is God,except the Lord? And who is a rock, except our God?
God  is my strength and power, and He makes my way perfect.
He makes my feet like the feet of a deer, And sets me on high places. He teaches  my hands to make war, So my arms can bend a bow of bronze.You have also given me the shield of your salvation,And Your gentleness has made me great. You enlarged my path under me;So my feet did not slip.
II Samuel 22:29-37
Do we really understand the amazing love He bestows on us?
Do we really understand the depth of His love?
Do we stop to understand God?
His love for us that He gave  His only Son, to go through what Jesus went through for US. Do we really stop to reflect and sit still with just Him?
What would happen if we would just dedicate a day to just worship Him and seek Him? Just a whole day to lay down  our lives for one day to show Him we do really love Him.
What would happen in church if we just didn't do the same thing but just worshipped Him? Set our  Sunday for just Him..no program, no message,no talking, just turn the whole service over to Him.  He is God, we are His kids...just for once to allow the Holy Spirit  take over.  I think God would love it. Its about Him, not us.

love of a mother

The love of a mother......she  has the caress of an angel and the love that is as deep as the ocean. When I was a little girl I used to kiss my mom so hard on the cheek it would hurt. I would squeeze her till she yelled.I remember laying my head on her lap an she would tickle my ears,till I fell asleep. She was always gentle an loving.There were those times though when you did something, oh man you would here your full name hollered,you better run. I remember a time she came to my class and she was pregnant with my sister,she was radiant and I was so proud of her.  There are so many memories in my heart of my mom and they are all wonderful.I'am so happy that she is my mom.She used to bake the best apple pies when she was able to be home.My mom had to work all the time an there were those few moments in life where she was able to be home. Its a sad thing for a mother to work.She has the most important job in the whole world, raising up a life.That is not to be taken lightly.Someone once said that the hand that rocks the cradle ,rules the world. I agree.... Today women work when they should be home with their children.Its part of the security that a child needs.But no its about getting more stuff.Now I know some women have to work,but what is it costing your family in the long run. I know first hand what it cost our family and I know my mom wanted to be with us more then anything.  Mothers don't give up the most important job you will ever do.Just because society says you should have a career an get out in the world,don't believe it.You are sacrificing the most important part of yours and your families life.Its not worth one penny that the world  could give. My mother has always been beautiful and she has  always been an encourager.She is much more then that too.She has always cared for her babies an I love her so much.Mother God bless you on your birthday today..you are an extension of Christs arms of love. That is not to be taken lightly either.

Jesus my Savior

This morning..feel the impact today of Jesus in my heart.Sat an reflected on my   salvation.I wept and wept. He saved me,  He saved me...who am I that He would call me.I just sat and thought about what He has done for me.I'm on my way to heaven and He saved me from hell.Do you really understand the impact of this?  Sit down and think about it, don't rush, just sit an think about it.Are you saved, do you really know what it means. My God has saved me,I just can't get  over this.I have felt most my life I was on a losing team, but now because of Jesus I'm on the winning team.I have won.Maybe this is not making any sense to you but the Lord touched me this morning with this thought about where I'am going.I'm heaven bound, I'm on my way to live with Jesus. Each day only brings me an opportunity to tell others about how much He wants  them to live with Him in eternity.Forever, thats a word now, what is forever......NO END to forever.So where are you going? Are you on your way to heaven or hell? Hell will be eternity too.Please don't make the wrong decision.He loves you so much,I'm just amazed at how much He loves me.Jesus Jesus Jesus...The sweetest name I know.Thank you Jesus for what happened to you on the cross for me.Thank you for your obedience even to death.The suffering You had to endure.Not that You had to,but because you wanted to,because you love us so much.  This was not an easy thing to endure.But You did anyway so that we could be called sons an daughters of the most High God. My Savior,My God, my Friend. You want us to live with You and You are preparing a place for us.The earth is beautiful,so how much more will heaven be.Oh our minds can't even fathom how glorious it will be.Wow I'am so amzed at how much You love us God.How awesome,wonderful, these words just don't seem to describe the magnitude of how  wonderful You truly are.This time of affliction is coming to an end, and all will be set right.Meditate on that!

Jehovah

Jehovah Tsidkenu: our  Righteousness

Jehovah M'Kaddesh: Our Sanctifier

Jehovah Shalom: our peace

Jehovah Shammah: the Ever Present one

Jehovah Rophe:our Healer

Jehovah Jireh: our Provider

Jehovah Nissi:our Banner

Jehovah Ro'i: our Shepard

He is everyhing to me......my all in all....my lover of my soul...my King of Kings an Lord of Lords.....The Alpha and Omega...the beginning and the end....He is Omnipotent,Omniscient,Omnipresent...Everywhere all the time , all knowing, all powerful.

He is the Great IAM

One day

What a beautiful day today.Finally had our indian summer, absolutely gorgeous. Today I'm walking a lot slower and my speech is extremely slow.In fact I had to have them measure me for a wheelchair.So I guess that is what I will be running around in. Its very nice but was hoping it wouldn't get to that point. Not being able to speak is the hard part too.Can't say what I want.So I have a device to use for that.Its a funny thing to be able to do all this stuff and its like in one day your whole world turns upside down. I know the Lord has me in His hands,but its hard to keep getting worse. My mom an Bob are here and they have blessed me so much.I wish they could stay. At least the weather has been pretty good for them.I know it will be hard when they leave,I will just have to get over it.Just like everything in my life that is hard...GET OVER IT JENNIFER!   I've learned  that the world  doesn't revolve around me, and thats fine with me.I wish I could do it all myself. I know God has a plan an purpose  for my life an He will do what is right on my behalf. He is always good and has always taken care of me.  Hope to be able to try an do some things before it gets worse. The winter is coming an it will be hard to get out.So lots of blogs then......I have stories about when I was a kid and it will be fun to write them out. Try an find pictures to put on it. Well God bless everyone that reads my blogs.Would love to hear if it is blessing you in someway.

selah...meditate on this

Thinking about how God paints each season. The fall is a an array of  golds,maroons,browns,yellows and oranges.Its a magnificent  beauty of colors and with each one He has painted them with such precision.Even the sky becomes something  of beauty.The moon seems to take on a new glow of  mystery.  The animals seem to wait in an expectation of  something about to  happen...............Then suddenly one then two and then many snow flakes began to fall. It  becomes a blanket of peace that seems to fall silently to the ground. It makes  like shadowy figures on the  snow as the moon reflects off of it.Snow  becomes like this time of peace  an life is at a slow pace. God makes all beautiful for He is..........
Then when you feel its time, the tiniest little flowers seem to  come popping through the snow. As if they crying out to a new breath of life. Everything seems to be asleep till its time to awaken.Its a new life just as we will have someday.The old has passed away and all things have become new. With spring brings an array of new freshness of the earth. It rains and brings with it new seed to replenish the earth.
Summer is by the door awaiting its new delivery of life. Just then it blooms into the  picture to show all its beauty. God has placed everything in its new places.  It begins to grow as the seeds fall to the ground, before long it will be back to harvest time.
This is how life is......you are born, you began to grow an learn an experience new things and  its like a  season of spring because all is fresh an new like a new born baby. Then summer the time of growing and knowing more about yourself...a time of finding out who you are and you grow an you meet people an you meet the person of your life to start your own family. Then before you know it the fall comes and you become older and life is  more difficult.
The things of this world is passing away and the only thing that is important is where you are going.  The snow begins  and with it brings  the peaceful  solitude of death.This is what the cold brings in the blanket of peace or the coldness of death.If you know Christ it brings a peaceful  desired longing  to be with the heavenly  Father. The long last awaits for our life.This is the seasons of life to be born, to live, to die, but to go on to live everlasting with the Father. The season of our life with expectation of what awaits us.

In the realm of the spiritual

Having faith that all will be well is very difficult at times. I always believed that I totally trusted God with everything and for the most part I know I did and still do. This thing that has come into our lives can really shake your faith up and  make you just run away.Kind of like Jonah an the whale. I mean he ran cause he didn't want the people of Ninevah to know the Lord. He felt as though they had done some pretty evil things and  they deserved  whatever God was going to do.  God had told Jonah go tell them if they don't turn from their evil ways I will destroy the city. Well Jonah ran ,jumped on a boat, and try to run from God.

Its really silly that he tried to do that,but don't we  do that very thing.

  When we just think that I will run my own life or I will do whatever  I want in this life, thats pretty much running from Him.

Trust  and   faith go together.I believe so therefore I trust God with every thing in my life.  Do we? Okay Lord here is my money but I want to spend it on my own desires, I want what I want.

 He  gave it to you and believe me ,He can take it away. 

 When you think about how Jonah finally came to his senses, he thought as he was sitting in the whale, I guess  I should do what God told me to do. He did and the result was great, the people  repented and  they land was saved.  He later was mad that they had repented.    He didn't think they deserved to be saved from the wrath.But who are we that we determine our lives or others. We  think we are in control of our destiny, that if we make the money and take care of our bodies, we will be fine. If you are a believer in Jesus Christ then you don't belong to yourself anymore.

You were bought  with a price an that price was the spilling of Jesus Christ blood. We can do those things ,take care of our lives ,but He is ultimately in control. I thought I was doing the things that I was supposed to,maybe I wasn't.I know now that He has been in control.Sure I made wrong decisions but it comes to a point where its time to heed God.I'am not saying God  put this disease on me, but I believe He is allowing it for the greater good.For me and maybe for someone else.All I know is I want to live for Him and do all He wants me to do.He deserves my best, cause He Jesus gave me His....with His life.Oh how He loves us so much. Hear the voice of God today an listen to what He is telling you for your life.

Kansas road trip

Road trip to Kansas, it was the 5th time I think ...we have it down pretty good.This beautiful cross stands right off the freeway.To me it has become a symbal of hope.We see it everytime we stop at the rest area in Effingham, Illinois. The trip there was beautiful,warm and just real pleasant. We got in that day about 6pm and stayed at the Holiday Inn.Had a handicap room and it was much easier getting in the shower.

The next norning headed in to have injections after I had the lovely Laura give me  the nerve conduction test...ooooohhhh it hurts.

Later on seen the pretty nurse Mary and she is so kind.Seen Maureen and just love visiting with her.Hard worker and does so much for Dr Barohn.Finally got to see my favorite Dr.Barohn, Im going to miss seeing everyone there.They have been so kind and have made me feel at home in Kansas.

The day we were to leave it was raining and we were late getting out,so we spent the night in Kansas again.The next morning was rain..rain..rain...more rain.Poor Gary it was hard on him driving,it makes you sleepy.Wake up Gary! Seen a semi completely off the road,he had hit a electric pole and the lines were surrounding him.Thank God the ems workers an electric trucks were there.Chopped it right in half.Hope he was ok, maybe he fell alsleep Gary.The bridge we crossed was the great M.i.s.s.i.s.s.i.p.p.i  river,  you have to spell it like that.Make sure its right...

They have these little castles next to the bridge,they are really neat.I guess maybe it has a light in it,not sure what they do.Neat looking though.We didn't get home till 8pm that night...man that was the longest drive ever.We made it! Its always good to back home...thank you Father for getting us home safely.

Family

When I was a kid, one of the things I loved so much was that I had a big family.I have 3 sisters and 3 brothers.I was the 6th kid on the totem pole,so I was considered the baby for a long time until my baby sis came along.It was great though,we would have  family dinner every night and though there were alot of bad times...there were good  times too.
            The older I got  we all scattered and went different ways.My parents divorced and it  was probaby a good,bad thing.The family was split and there was no  security anymore.Now I'm not going into all that.What I really want to talk about is the family I found when I met my husband.
        Beginning with my mother and father in law...they became in a sense my new parents.  My mother in law taught me alot and I can never put in words all that she taught me.I know we had some disagreements but it was ok.Thats what you do when  you love someone and care about what they say. She taught me how to be more lady like,she taught me stuff like cooking an cleaning.Now my own mom taught me some of this but I think I lost it somewhere.I just can't explain all the wonderful things she did for me.I love her very much and always will be greatful for her. Gary's father,well let me tell you this...he is in my heart forever,he made me comfortable when I didn't know anyone.He would sit an tell jokes to me. He just had this way of making you feel relaxed around him and knowing it was ok.
He was a great man and I love him an miss him so much.I can't wait to see you again someday dad..we all miss you so much,its never been the same since you left.
           Now the rest of the family are our kids,granbabies,brothers,sisters,cousins,nephews..ect They all have blessed me so much..I can say each one has touched me in a special way and I'm forever greatful they love me and I them.Having this family has been more to me then I could ever imagine.I love each one with a heart felt  love. How can I ever repay you for what you have given me.
I'm  blessed beyond measure for having a family  such as this.

als chapter of Ohio

Thinking about the wonderful ladies at ALS chapter in  Columbus, Ohio.Since I have been sick they have helped out with a wheelchair,grabber,walker and other neccesities. They are very warm ,caring individuals and I had to tell you  how much they are appreciated on my part. Each time I go up there to get something I need they have sat and asked me how I'am ,how things are going and also give me info about the needs I  might have in the future. The people that deal with this disease an other neurological disorders  seem to have this extra added  kindness about them. I'm sure they see many people and get to know them on a regular basis. When someone dies of this disease, I'm sure it can be difficult for them too.They deal with it everyday and they understand the difficulties with it. I just want to thank them for making it easier for me.They are quick to respond and I'm greatful that they are there for me and all ALS patients.

You have blessed us more then you know. Keep those beautiful smiles and your positive outlook for those fighting this disease. May God bless you for all you have done.

Bad days vs Good days

When having a bad day, need to consider the reasons

why am I having  such a bad day? What are the reasons behind it?Why should I allow this? What can I do about it?

Well sometimes it isn't your fault your having a bad day but how you choose to look  at it is the question. I'm tired and have a hard time walking or doing anything. I think its ok to have a bad day  since they come involuntarily.Its staying there  too long is whats bad.
  Okay so you are there ..now what...how do you get out of it?
   If there is one ting I'm learning is that I have to shake off the bad  stuff, so I can get on with the good.If I stay here and think about how bad this can get then I'm not going to find  any joy in anything. I know whenever I skip reading Gods word I can for sure guarantee that I will have a yuck day.
I seem to have a better day when I start off reading His word.
Somehow no matter what, it always gives me hope in my situation. I know its hard times for everyone,but you must look at what you have an how your life is.If you are having a rough time,wether it be finacially,health,losing your home,ect. You still have to look to whom you were created from. He is still the creator of the universe and He is still in control...I will not fear  what can man do to me, when God is on my side. Problems aren't going to always just disappear but He has promised to stand with you through it all.I don't know what tomorrow will bring, but I know who controls tomorrow and thats fine with me.

Disabilities

Sometimes this road I'm on gets really  tiresome. I'm fine one minute and then I'm ready to throw the towel in...Its really hard day after day  knowing  that this can get much worse.  I find that I admire people with disabilities so much more then I ever have.I knew it was tough but the emotional part of it is just as hard as the physical. There is so much I want to do and can't. Gary's aunt Scherrie has been doing this for over 30yrs......she is my greatest hero next to Jesus. This woman has had to endure the toughest of times and in my book she is much greater then superman or a basketball star or a football hero.  HELLO.......the heros are the ones that go through life and deal with the difficulties of not being able to  do the things we take for granted . For instance like just taking a shower, or trying to go to the bathroom in a public place, I can go on an on.  I guess it took me  to get sick before I realized the hardships these wonderful people go through.  I know there are alot of great achievers, but make no mistake these are the ones that deserve  the applause.I'm not saying for me either, I've only had to do this for a year and I'm a cry baby. I think that Wheaties should be the breakfast of champions as the  ones that really are..The kids with muscular dystrophy an down syndrome kids...adults that have  had  disabilities battles all their life...You know I might just write a letter to Wheaties.

My Faith

Thinking about how you come about faith....

When I first had an understanding about God, I was about 5 yrs old, my mom was taking us to church.I remember the old hymnals we used to sing,when our voices were all you could hear.No music ,just piano and the sound of people singing to the Lord. They were sad as I remember and on several occasions I would look up at my mom and she would be crying. I never really understood why she was crying but she would look at me and smile. I'm sure I asked her why she was crying and she would say,I love Jesus so much. I thought who is this Jesus that makes my mom cry.I'm sure I had other ideas in my head but I will never forget and that was my first understanding of God.

Later on  my life would take alot of terrible turns,as a young person I seemed to take all the wrong paths.

Later in my 20's I finally met Jesus for the second time,but this time it was so different. He became so alive in my life like never before.I was ashamed of all I had done before Him and somehow He was saying all is forgiven..let it go. That was hard for me to do,cause I felt like there was so much I had done wrong.He just kept telling me you are forgiven.I knew in my heart that God is real and Jesus did die on the cross for me.All it took was a simple act of faith.I believe, though I cannot see Him I know He is real.

My life changed so much,I never wanted anything more in my life then Him. I hungered for His word everyday.I  had alot of difficulties that just didn't go away at that moment, but I knew He was going to help me through everything.I knew all was going to be well.

Its been over 20 yrs ago that I gave my life to Jesus and I promise you it has never been a dull moment.Much good and much bad has happened, but my faith is in tact,even though it has been shaken many times. Today I go through the most difficult thing I have ever faced.The battle for my life.I guess from the moment you are born the enemy is out there to kill you. He hates so much of anything of Gods creation.John 10:10  says The enemy comes to kill,steal,and destroy. But I have come to give life and give it with abundance. You are Jesus, a God of abundance,of love,joy,peace,kindness,mercy and You are my God.There is no other god.My favorite verse in the bible is..John 14:6 Jesus is the way,the truth,and the life, no man comes to the Father except through Jesus. Because He took it all on the cross for all of us,even those who hate Him.He loves So I stand today with greater faith then I started out with. In this past 11 months my faith has grown beyond what I ever thought it would.I don't like this thing that has happened, but I like what it has done to me.It has changed me and my faith in God is ever stronger.I will have bad days ,but I know He will be with me and He will help me through it all.I pray my love will grow for Him more an more an my love for people will grow deeper as well.For He loves so I love...Thank you father for what the devil intended for evil will turn out for good..no matter what.

defeat als walk...more later

Well this is it...a wonderful day at the walk. I'm not sure how many were there but it was alot and my group alone was 25 and I was greatly humbled how many came to walk on behalf of me. I had all my little lamzs with me an friends from church and most all my family. I was able to find a friends that have this disease that i have been speaking with. Heather Davies and her family.Wonderful friends,her father has als. Met all of them and was blessed by their presence.  Also met

Debbie Tope, no relation...she is a truely wonderful person, both of these friends have had it for 16 yrs.They are an inspiration.Met Mr Nichols he has just begun  this journey...I'm praying for a cure but praying for each person.  God is good and I know He dosen't want this disease on us.I'm praying scripture everyday lke medicine, His word is healing to my body.
      It was a fun d and we enjoyed the walk,laughed and had great time.  I will write more later on

computer glinch

Compute r glinched on me the past week...So I have to catch up on the writting...  Must have been a glinch in the matrix....
o the walk was sunday and the reunion so I will post and talk more about all the people I met and the wonderful time...till tomorrow

IThessalonians 5

This will be short and sweet..... This is a great chapter to read, hope you really sit down and read and give it lots of thought.. This is the time for these things to happen and I don't want anyone to be caught off guard.God bless you as you read and truly ponder the meaning of this chapter. Sunday is the big ALS walk at Fred Beekman park...this will be my first year and excited to meet some people I have been talking with. ALS is a terrible disease and I can only hope that a cure will come before  it takes anymore lives. Some people don't even live  even a year after diagnosis. There are not enough  things known about this disease because its so rare, but I feel more an more people are getting it..so hopefully they will work hard for a cure.  ....

Handicapped or

   One day feeling like I had a pretty good handle on life.Felt like I was taking good care of myself, exercising,walking,drinking water,eating good food.  Then one day I felt like I couldn't make it around the block,felt like I couldn't make it up the steps,just felt so tired all the time. So went to the doctor and after many tests and being referred to another Dr, I was told I have ALS Lou Gehrigs disease. That day I didn't really think anything of it.In my heart I felt like I new it was going to be ok. In fact the Dr. told me I had great coping skills.I said no just have many praying for me.
         Well fast forward and here it is going into 11 months of the disease,but now thinking back I think its been  going on for 2 or more years. People look at me and tell me how amazed they are  and they say you are an inspiration.They say you are humble never complain. They are amazed at how I'm handling this, losing my ability to walk,talk,swallow,breathe and all my capabilities.
      This disease promises to rob me of everything, not just my physical, but my husband,my children,my granbabies, my life.   I don't think of myself as someone that is brave, but people say that I'am.  What am I going to do?  What can I do?  I have to deal with it,I have to learn how to keep overcoming obstacles that are thrown in front of me.
   If we don't overcome these obstacles in our lives,then they will swallow us up. Our children are watching us ,the world is watching,so we can overcome, Jesus did it and He showed us how. Trust Him He will help us through this .
       I get mad, I get blue,I get depressed, I feel sorry for myself too.

  I just can't stay there in those places,because it promises to destroy me quicker then the disease. Being bitter and feeling sorry for myself doesn't do me one bit of good.In fact when I feel that way I got to change it  ASAP.If I don't it will just hang there dragging me down further.I'm not brave I'm just dealing with it,but I'm not doing it alone,  I have people...have you heard that fraze..I have people...not just any people,I have people that love me,care for me,pray for me and I have God.If know one stood with me then I know He is always near.I do admit I felt abandoned by Him at first when I started losing my legs, but I new God loved me so much .He promised never to leave me...ever. So I  deal with it and I'm thankful for people that  pray for me.  My husband who goes beyond what a husband should have to do, but Im glad he wants to,he shows me more & more of his love. I'm not glad I have this sickness,but it is teaching me things that I never would have learned any other way. So I take it one day at a time and hold tightly to His GRACE that gets me through each day.I know there are more obstacles I have to overcome and I will deal with them when I get there.  I hope this has helped someone in someway........Iam still believing I will be completely healed, cause my God is bigger then any puny disease..to Him be all the glory!!!Jesus:0)

Times of our lives

Thinking about when life was so much different then it is today.I don't know but it seems like life was just a bit easier.Maybe cause I was a kid..    We had so much fun just playing in the creek beds and pretending we were  princesses or cowgirls with horses(sticks)...but the point was we had to use our imagination.I loved clinbing trees,it was so cool you could climb up there and  they would never know you were there. If it was an apple tree you had food. I used to live down the street from a cemetary and we would walk through it all the time.I mean during the day it was ok.

One night us girls, Becky an Sylvia and me were coming back from somewhere in town.it was a small town and it had gotten dusk.People didn't worry to much back then cause it was still safe to be out after dark.

Well we got to the cemetary and we really didn't want to cut through but it was getting late,so we decided to go through...were walking and all of sudden from a distance we see this flag waving back and forth  all by itself.  We were little so our imagination was big.  Well we were scared but my oldest sis Sylvia said its one of the boys.  Sylvia went walking through not paying any attention to it,but me & Becky decided to check it out...brave lil souls, just as we approached the flag waving...out jumps my brother Jeff...Boys can be sooo bad.

While we are on this subject of Jeff my 2nd oldest brother I have another story to tell about him.

One night we were told to get up to bed, so us 3 girls started up the steps as we hit the top step there down the hall,  all dark,was this hairy looking ,glowing eyes type of creature.

Well what do 3 little girls do...SCREAM!....and run or fly down the steps.My dad  about came unglued and yes we got in big trouble as dad took us up the steps of course nothing was there and my brother Jeff was in bed sleeping.

I think dad always new what was really up but  he let the boys get away with  it once in a while. I have to tell you what he made the creature out of though....Moms furry winter coat with his stand up punching bag,her white eraser  lip stick for the face ,which was horrible looking, and a flashlight sitting on the floor under it to give it a glow.

Yeah it was a creature,I mean I can still remember it today so it made an impression. So thank you brother Jeff for scaring us girls half to death..I know it was so much fun for you.  Life really was fun then...there are some more of these stories I will tell later, I have to find pictures to go with it.

Armour -2

Me & Gary

We were just kids when we met. I met him that day at our home and my sister brought him over.I had just came down stairs when I noticed there wasn't any chairs at the table to sit, so I did the next best thing.......I sat on his lap! A bit bold don't you think, well sometimes I was and sometimes I was shy.But he was cute so what the heck.

We dated on and off, I stood him up so he stood me up.

I invited him to a concert(Peter Frampton) at the river front coliseum.It was so crowded that day, there were other bands playing so probably over 100,000 easy.  There Iam with my girlfriend and she borrows this guys binoculars and starts looking around. Leave it to her, she says, I think I see Gary!  I'm like what!He told me he had to work for his uncle today.

Lets go down there and ask him what is he doing here. I really didn't want to do that, I figured if he was  blowing me off then there is no since in pursuing this guy.

Oh no she wanted to confront him...I think she liked him. Believe it or not we found him in that sea of people.It was so crowded that you could'nt move around. He was surprised!

He really thought he had to work but when he didn't he said he wanted to see if he could find me.Ha right....

Anyway I got him and I'm still crazy about this guy...it just gets better and better...he is more then I ever  could of imagined he would be.He is so wonderful and I love him dearly. Our life has had many ups and downs, but if you really love someone ,you will forgive,you will love them and be by each others side no matter what. He most definetly has proved that and I in return have done the same.

Love truly conquers all...I love you Gary 4-ever

God good.devil bad

God is sooo cool.  Met my neighbor that lives right next door.She came over and told me she was concerned for me when she seen the ambulance last week.She said i want you to have my number so if you have any trouble you can call me.
       Here is the best part...shes a nurse...how cool is that.I mean does God watch our back or what.He says He is our rear guard.I'm so amazed at how He watches over us.I love you Lord with all of my heart, I love you Lord with all of my mind and all that is within me crys Holy is your name, all that is within me crys Holy is Your Name!   I love You Lord < You are so wonderful and even though my voice be silent I will still praise you in my heart,mind,and soul.You are worthy of all my praise.....thank you for what you did for me

He is Speaking

..........Spoke with Him today, told Him I was weary, told Him I was sorry, told Him I want to be everything for Jesus...He gave  everything for me, I want to give back to Him, my Redeemer, my Savior.  I asked Him to anwser me speedily, need to hear His voice...........Waited,believed and I new He would speak to me.

      I speak to you everyday ,He said, so many different ways.   Today was different,I needed to see what He had to say.He spoke to me of prayer, it wasn't  in an audible voice. It was one of His great Patriarchs..I new it was the  the Lord, because everything I asked Him , He answered. He even put my favorite scripture in..John 14:6

  I know He speaks to me ,sometimes I just don't listen.

The prayer is powerful,  He wants me to come to Him with my whole heart. It breaks the chains of the enemy that he lays hold of my mind with. God You are so good....so good

 I Peter 1..read it a whole new way today.  V-3  born again, bought by the precious blood of Jesus   v-4 born anew to  an inhertance that awaits for us,reserved for us.   v-5 Being guarded by Gods power through our faith till we fully inherit that final salvation, that is ready to be revealed to us in these last days.    v-6 So we are distressed for a little while with trials and sufferings.     v-7Our faith being tested which is more precious  then perishable gold.     v-8 Though we haven't seen Him, we love Jesus with an inexpressible joy.   v-9 We recieve the salvation purchased for us.

v-14 Living in obedience to God,not being conformed to this world, be holy as God is Holy.    v-17 We should always conduct ourselves with a  true reverance throughout the time  of our temporary residence on this earth. v-20 He was  chosen before the world was ever formed.

       We  like a flower that drops its pedals after a few days of flowering. Here today and gone tomorrow.  That I should make my mark with a loud shout for  Jesus, the One who made a loud shout for me.

 Who are we but the precious  children of God , called only to give of our selves as He gave Himself.They say don't forget 9-11 that horrible day,but I say how can we forget Jesus.

           He deserves our  servant hood to Him and only to Him. He is King and Lord over all the earth and there are NO OTHER gods...They will all bow at HIS PRECIOUS FEET one day and they will be sorry they didn't listen.

 I know I'm not the best writer, but this is my heart...LOVE HIM,  Honor HIM, Glorify HIM in your body, allow HIM to live through you that all men will see you and know its HIM not you.