Handicapped or

   One day feeling like I had a pretty good handle on life.Felt like I was taking good care of myself, exercising,walking,drinking water,eating good food.  Then one day I felt like I couldn't make it around the block,felt like I couldn't make it up the steps,just felt so tired all the time. So went to the doctor and after many tests and being referred to another Dr, I was told I have ALS Lou Gehrigs disease. That day I didn't really think anything of it.In my heart I felt like I new it was going to be ok. In fact the Dr. told me I had great coping skills.I said no just have many praying for me.
         Well fast forward and here it is going into 11 months of the disease,but now thinking back I think its been  going on for 2 or more years. People look at me and tell me how amazed they are  and they say you are an inspiration.They say you are humble never complain. They are amazed at how I'm handling this, losing my ability to walk,talk,swallow,breathe and all my capabilities.
      This disease promises to rob me of everything, not just my physical, but my husband,my children,my granbabies, my life.   I don't think of myself as someone that is brave, but people say that I'am.  What am I going to do?  What can I do?  I have to deal with it,I have to learn how to keep overcoming obstacles that are thrown in front of me.
   If we don't overcome these obstacles in our lives,then they will swallow us up. Our children are watching us ,the world is watching,so we can overcome, Jesus did it and He showed us how. Trust Him He will help us through this .
       I get mad, I get blue,I get depressed, I feel sorry for myself too.

  I just can't stay there in those places,because it promises to destroy me quicker then the disease. Being bitter and feeling sorry for myself doesn't do me one bit of good.In fact when I feel that way I got to change it  ASAP.If I don't it will just hang there dragging me down further.I'm not brave I'm just dealing with it,but I'm not doing it alone,  I have people...have you heard that fraze..I have people...not just any people,I have people that love me,care for me,pray for me and I have God.If know one stood with me then I know He is always near.I do admit I felt abandoned by Him at first when I started losing my legs, but I new God loved me so much .He promised never to leave me...ever. So I  deal with it and I'm thankful for people that  pray for me.  My husband who goes beyond what a husband should have to do, but Im glad he wants to,he shows me more & more of his love. I'm not glad I have this sickness,but it is teaching me things that I never would have learned any other way. So I take it one day at a time and hold tightly to His GRACE that gets me through each day.I know there are more obstacles I have to overcome and I will deal with them when I get there.  I hope this has helped someone in someway........Iam still believing I will be completely healed, cause my God is bigger then any puny disease..to Him be all the glory!!!Jesus:0)